This is wonderful, Elle, beautifully-written, and I understand it so well. Every word is weighted with emotion and truth. I'm going much the same thing. My mother is 101 and I brought her to live with me in December, just before this pandemic. She has mild dementia but keeps pushing her body on and on with a will that's astounding. I do what I can to help her feel comfortable and loved and respected and to have moments of joy. But I'm on duty first thing in the morning and for the rest of the day.