Maybe your time to be an activist is out in the future and you are currently being equipped for that purpose. Or maybe it's never, and you are meant to bring a smile with your dog stories or a tear with your heartfelt stories that touch hearts and resonate with others who grieve. Either way, you don't need to strive for it. Whatever it is you are meant to do will come. I wish you comfort and send you hugs during this tsunami of grief.