Kiran, I'm so sorry you are going through such a terrible situation. I wish you well and hope your situation improves. Your article reminded me of the biography of Ravi Zacharias that I just finished, because in reading it I was surprised that he tried to end his life. He almost succeeded, and ended up in the hospital. But he survived, and went on to lead a most remarkable life. Hang in there until your wonderful life arrives. You sound like a remarkable and loving mother.