I had a feeling as I was reading this that you are going to get amazingly better. Don’t know why I feel this way.
On another note, my sister who has Tourette’s avoids meetings with other TS sufferers because she’s afraid she’ll pick up on their tics and add them to her repertoire. Chemical imbalances and mental illnesses are strange and fascinating, but often give rise to great levels of brilliance. Keep on keeping on writing and stay hopeful! Those demons can be conquered.